Rocco Siffredi: From Darkness to Light, My Journey Through Pornography

"Pornography was my salvation, not my damnation, because it helped me get out of depression," says Rocco Antonio Tano, known as Rocco Siffredi, fresh from the success of "Supersex", the Netflix series inspired by his story as the king of porn, ranking in the top ten of the most viewed series not only in Italy but also in 62 countries around the world, talks about his life revealing his most intimate and personal sides. Alessandro Borghi dad Supersex: "Porn? I watch at least one a day but we need to educate about sexuality." Rocco Siffredi confesses "I am always depressed - reveals the porn star in an exclusive interview with Adnkronos - Just when I stop to reflect, I get depressed but I have never used drugs because I always told myself that I had to learn to overcome any obstacle on my own through my own strength. I remember that as a young man I trained a lot in the gym, I made huge physical efforts beyond my capabilities and that was why my scenes lasted so long on set." The relationships with the family "I haven't had beautiful dreams for years. If I had to write the nightmares I have, I would become the most famous horror director in the world," he says with a bitter smile. What is your relationship with your family today? "I have a very particular relationship with my family... my mom and dad are dead and with Tommaso (the older brother, ed) we haven't spoken for ten years anymore." "What hurt me the most was seeing my mother always sad, it hurt me terribly - the actor continues - My only dream was to help her get out of poverty. Porn saved me because it managed to not make me think about the pain I was feeling." The most painful moment Asked about the most painful moment of his life, Rocco replies: "Seeing my mother die - he recalls moved - I was by her side for the last two months. The week before she died, unfortunately, she went into hepatic coma so she didn't recognize people. It was just me next to her, I sat on the bed and she would bite and scratch me because she didn't recognize me and I cried and told her: 'mom it's Rocco', I really suffered a lot," he concludes. The relationship with Moana Pozzi "Moana Pozzi was a very strong and classy woman, but I never saw her as a porn star. She had the melancholy of a sad girl inside, I was unhappy because of my mother's loss while she hid another secret," says Siffredi remembering fondly the porn diva who passed away on September 15, 1994. Was there ever sex between you off the set? "No never - he reveals - we never took each other sexually. I know it might seem strange but I saw her as a sister, we spent a lot of time talking and confiding in each other." Siffredi says he is no longer willing to return to the set: "I no longer have the physique du role, I see myself as old. At 55 I decided to stop acting because a crisis of mine began, I saw these 18-20-year-old girls who wanted to work with me but I felt inadequate." Have you overcome your sex addiction? "More than anything I learned to control myself - he continues - I never went to a psychologist, I got out thanks to my wife (Rózsa Tassic, ed) who was so intelligent not to get carried away by emotion and who one day simply told me: 'Rocco you need help.'" The HIV risk "This addiction lasted a good 15 years - Siffredi recalls - as soon as I saw a woman, but also a man or a transsexual I couldn't help myself, I had to have sex. It was as if there were two personalities inside me and one wanted to harm itself. I always think that someone protected me from above, I could have died of HIV many years ago but when you suffer from addiction, no disease matters," he concludes.